lOvE---LiKe---hAtE!!!

diary.i feel like so much feelings is inside me today!!from love to like to hate!! i have toooo many things to tell to u.. i am very upset n in fact im crying rite now. this point of time. it hurts lots, u noe. i feel n wonder y ppl keep betraying me n making me feel bad abt myself. i hate them! i just couldnt understand them esp.my sister. she keeps bullying me like there is no tommorrow. wat i mean is that i have to listen to her all the time! if not, she will give me this sour face n start her shit! i, as a sister, feels freaking bad n try to cheer her up in any ways but... it's realli gettin out of hand..i seriously cant take it anymore!! y must i always follow her instructions? so wat if she is the elder one?? am i a maid or a stupid mf* sister?? i feel like im a rotten egg.. when it comes to $$, everyone will come to me. but if i dun have?? wat will happen?? u get wat i mean,dun u??

i met lina today n had fun. we talked n talked nonsense. as usual ah. then, i met zee at burger king. we had leftovers n i thought of bringing it to makca hse coz there got many ppl n firdaus is there too! im sooooo happy n wanted to leave early but got things to buy. lina went to werk so, zee n i went to top 20 to buy skirt n pants fer myself. then, we went sooo many stores to check fer shirts n stuff. we headed to giant aft getting tired of window shopping. we bought stuffs fer zee's hse then bought some drinks n rojak. hungry again?? went to food court(b1) n eat our food. feel like eating char kway teow with kerang n bought one plate n share by ourselves..haha. i felt secure n had fun with him each time we went out alone. i felt bad aft bullying n scolding him but i have to put in some sense in his brains.. seriously, im not lying..@ 3pm i went my aunt hse by taking taxi. rich wad..haha. saw firdaus n played with him. he is my little cousin whom is just 14mths. miss him soooooo much.

@ 6pm, went out with my sister to buy our new rabbit, mocha, a cage. met zee n joe @ parkway n get buzy planning wat to buy for the rabbit. confident enuff, called our parents to confirm. in e end, get scoled n not allowed to adopt the rabbit. my sis cldnt talk when wif fone wif my dad. asked her sooo many times but cried insead. feeling freaking bad, finaally she msg me n said that not allowed to buy the stufffs n had to give other ppl. =( sis cried n i too cried. so sad to leave that cute, innocent rabbit away. sad to see sis disappointed. talked to her n she smiled! finally!! went to Mc cafe n bought food to eat AGAIN!! haha. eat n eat n eat. that's my job!

suppose to meet my cousin, kakno at cathay cineplex but we took our own sweet time. my sis onli wear short pants but wanted to follow us n watch movie together. so, i thought of buying her long pants or anything betta den that shorts. first, went to giordano then esprit, baleno, samuel n kevin, top 20 n finally to royal sporting hse. she go n choose this quite ex pants fer $49 but got disc so its $44.10. haiz~ we were late coz of her. i dun mind if she's nice to me but she changed aft i bought the pants n went to see kakno. she starts her sour face n expects me to listen wad she says @ long john. i dun wanna give a damn animire!! im seriously sic n tired of this freaking sh*t! enuff is enuff!! there surely a tolerance in everything u do, ryte?? weell, diary. i wish that my sis cld be like other sis who is more understanding n dun push me ad like a clown. i hate being like this. let me live lyke a human, just lyke her. plz!!