play my favourite song.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

under circumtances.

i dunno whether is it my computer fault or blogger's fault.
blooody bitch.
now i have to retype everything.

it looks like kakya has no faith and confidence in me entering shatec.
will i waste my daddy's $$??
or will i prove ppl wrong and did well in shatec??
will i this or will i that??

hey everyone,
i misss you guys like crazy.

puh-lease do me a favour, ppl.
i'm back at katong sarpinos.
so, puh-lease dont ask me about my past, why am i back here.
give me some space.
i just wanna forget about wateva stupid unplesant past i had at the past.
get it??
thks.
buang yang keroh,
ambil yang jernih.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

tweeet

she WILL be loved.

i'm sleepy.

grumpy.

better go and rest lah.

bye.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

a.r.bernard.

i've got to do something with my life.

coz it kills me when i brags or forever thinking about the past.

however, aft reading some 'happiness' book jill let me read, i've settled down.

forget about the past.

plan for the future.

hmmm..thats more like it!!

Friday, August 18, 2006

abg rashid and sheila.

i'm sooo sick of love songs.

*yucks!!

i'm just left with no more words to say.

wadeva has happen in my life, is such a failure for me.

all i need is more and much patience in me so that i could handle such irritating and bitching situations smoothly.

with the new manager in town, he's killing me softly with his words.

if one day i explode,

you choose either us/me or him.

by then, i leave that place with no memories in me.

coz you took it all away and burnt it in a rubbish bin.

its sooo easy for you to destroy my life when it took me months to built it up.

you're just afraid to be thrown away again.

bastard.

and one more thing, dont just spill nonsense to the rest coz it aint true.

wat you sre trying to do is asking ppl to believe you so that they will deserted me.

hah!!

bloody bitch.

get a life.

you'e only 17 and you're trying to act as if you're old enuff to control ppl's mind.

dont let me give you a fantastic five on your face, bitch.

you're asking for it.

bebsy, i will have to stop producing tears just for you.

if it happens again, lets be separated.

coz maybe, we're not meant to be together.

Monday, August 14, 2006

hair desire.

i never missed something sooo much in my life.
its not even less important.
but!!
its some very very valuable for girls, ladies, woman.

long curly dry fizzy hair,
you're dearly missed!!

and now, its keeps me wondering wat hairstyle i have to keep to make me feel good.
hmmm..
do you have any idea for me??
tell me sooon!!
*muahhh

happie 19th birthday,ex-boyfriend.

dont worry, we'll be together in years to come.
gdnite.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

bebsy doodle @ geylang.

just for shikin, i sneak out at 3am yest just to settle her prob with her bf.

god.

i cant imagine.

3am??!!

sneak out??!

and when you noe where i went, you must have a negative thinking in your head too.

and to think of it, i only know her less than 3 mths.

but it looks like we've known like soooo long.

i'm still wondering why i have been sacrifising most of my time for her.

same goes as for her.

shatec's seminar in less than 24 hrs.

i'm worried sick.

for what??

i have absolutely no idea.

ahah-

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

cherry lips.

the reason why i'm getting rid of the old skin is not because i'm sick&tired of it.

but its because i'm...

lookin forward for a new & better life.
forgetting & losing contact or in other words, breaking all ties with that someone who used to mean alot to me.
not going to sob or wasting my tears for small matters that usually affects me.
be strong & have self-confidence in me at all times.

there's more.

but let's keep it short & simple at the moment.

i've been occupying myself lately.

i do not want to think unnecessarily.

i've been dying to meet someone.

nis laaa.

it's been such a long time ever since we sat down at starbucks and slack for a very long long hours.

shaz and mary ann too.

puh-lease note that you babes meant alot in my life.

btw nis, you broke my heart tau.

by saying you dunno how much you mean in my life.

kecik hati i.

ahaha.

i'll end here.

tmr will be a very very busy day, i think.

national day doesnt look like its day tmr.

ohhh well.

wateva it is, happy 41st birthday, singapore!!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

if one day u feel like crying,call me..
I dont promise that i will make u laugh,but i can cry with u.
If one day u want to run away-- dont be afraid to call me.
I dont promise to ask u to stop.but i can run with u.
If one day u dont want to listen to anyone;call me.
I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet.
But one day if u call.and there is no answer;come fast to see me.
Perhaps i need u.

Remember,"Dont ever leave the one u love for the one u like, because the one u like will leave u for the one they love."""

i'm free on thurs.free enuff to spend time with me too??

Saturday, August 05, 2006

i'm still trying..

still trying..

trying..

forgetting abt someone you care and loved for is not a piece of cake.

its heartbreaking.

viva forever.

i'll be waiting.

everlasting.

like the sun.

live forever,

for the moments,

ever-seaching,

for the one.

~~puh-lease stop playing with my feelings.~~

good question,nis.

why him???

sewaktu kau melangkah,
meninggalkan diriku.
sebak nya dadahku,
menahan titis air mata.
jika ada kesilapan ku,
maafkan lah diriku ohhh sayang..
dan izinkanaku bertanya mengapa kau berubah hati??
kira nya kau ada pergantiku,
tetapi hidupmu tak bahagia,
relaku memaafkan mu dan menerima mu sayang.
walaupun hatiku kau lukai,
namun ku masih menyayangi.
kerna sehingga waktu ini cintaku masih untukmu.
ohhh sayang,
dimana kau berada, jangan lah kau lupakan aku.
ingat.. aku walau sesesaat seorang insan yang terluka.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

i've shouldnt have bumped into you.

it was A BLOOODY HUGE STUPID mistake.

you're there.

standing still.

and just doing nothing makes me feel oh-so-great.

i felt sooooo stupid having such a BIG ENORMOUS crush on you while you...

....

...

i'm lost of words.

you know you meant alot to me.

ALOT.

i had a great time.

when suddenly, while on the fone with mom, i saw someone.

whom i had a crush with.

he is with aidil & azura.

said 'hi' and i went off.

i was totally DUMBFOUNDED without realising it AT ALL.

even when i was in the cinema.

the lakehouse was totally a bore to me even when its suppose not to be.

thank god hadi & shikin is with me.

or else, i'll jump off from plaza sing.

call me mad or stupid.

in short, dumb.

hah.

wats e difference??

sigh-

i thought i was about to foget him when i bumped into him at the wrong timing.

everything went wrong after everyone quit sarpy katong.

bloooody hell-

why do i deserve of losing such great gorgeous frens.

i just couldnt take it anymore.

i miss our flirt bang bang,ahmad.

(sorrrrie nis. i used your random line)

neither both of us knew wats the meaning of it but we acted as if we know.

bitch.

hahaha.

nis, ma, thks for dropping by yest.

god.

you guys gave me a shock man!!!

thks alot.

you both makes me feeel much betta after that but i promise to treat you guys soooon!!

promises, promises, promises.

when can i prove to them that my promises arent and neva should be broken.

if i have one wish, just ONE,

puh-lease stop making me from crying everyday.

my dad has been such an ass and have been pressuring me from the start.

and i just couldnt take it anymore.

i'm utterly sick & tired of his SHIT.

till now, i'm crying because of this nonsense.

'bak, stop it.

didnt you realise how hard have you been on me.

i'm your blooody fresh-bloood daughter for sake!!

puh-lease, i beg you, understand me for once.

just this time.'

i am waiting for someone to knock me down SOOON.

puh-lease.

knock me down till i landed in hospital for months.

so, i dont have to worry for anything.

anything that has been hurting me.

i need leave.

sick, annual, or wateva leave i should take laaah.

i neeed rest.

rest and far away from work.

maybe ah chiok and anthony could help me.

hahah.

fat chance.

they always disturb me until my heart pain.

'go and see doctor laaah'.

haha.

anthony's fav phrase.

relaku pujuk by spider has given me a great impact.

the lyrics and everything has been in my mind ALL e time.

sigh-

i'm so sick of being in love & be in loved.

*nite