wAd tHe HELL!!!!??

WAT WAS EVERYONE THINKING?? i get sooo frustrated this morning. wad's happening to my family n ma life?!!i think, im just nobody. seriously, i am nobody.im sad, truly stressed up with ppl ard me. maybe i sldnt have to much frens n family coneections. my sis still doesnt understand wat im saying. well, kakda...i noe u r readin my blog. i seriously dun understand u. u prefer taking ur problems to ur frens then me. its fine with me. but is it fair to sae that i dun understand u more than ur frens? u didnt even taking to me then how the hell am i going to understand u more. u noe how much pressure i suffer more than u at home. mom have more love for u than me coz of beauty. wel, u noe that u r more pretty than me n slim. well, wat do i have?? u knew that!! but u took that for granted. i have beeen crying all this to myself since u arent by my side. in fact that my tears has rolled down my cheecks n i cldnt dare to look at mom n bro. y cldnt u just understand me?? it realli hurts me inside, kakda..i knew u r too! i have feeling so do u. i have a heart, so do u. so, tell me wats ur problem wih me. that day, when u r doin the survey, i felt happy as to accompany u since u got no one. u told me that u cried coz there are some ppl who r sooo stucked up with u. it breaks ma heart to see u in that situation but u didnt noe. u thought that i didnt care abt it at all. how wld i feel fine or great?? U R MY SISTER!!! no one else cld take up ur place.. but u make me force to do it. i told my probs to lina n anisa. they r the ones who r like my 2nd sister. they understand me rite from the start. but, u knew more of ma probs then them. coz its unfair. how can i avoid telling my sister probs than my fren?? kakda, i have suffered alot. i noe u too. but if we keep on treating each other lyke this, then wat will happen??