sAd... sOoOo sAd!!

dearest.. i am so sad.. im heartbroken.. i cant take it anymore.. im confused...sad n depressed!! i was just abt to tell u wat i did today but sadness came into my life sooo suddenly.. i read ex dearie, lisa's blog just now.. i am sooo sad.. i didnt noe y im missing them sooo badly.. all the four of them... i cant control my sadness.. im crying real bad n my head is spinning like shit!! argh!! damn irritating n sickening.. its sooo painful... but nvm... i felt sooo hurt when my heart is heartbroken..i think tak lame lagi aku akan masuk hospital giler.. i cant stand anymore by putting a mask at my face infront of dem.. i cant!! OH GOD!! HELP ME FROM SUFFERING FROM THIS PAIN.. IT HURTS!! my sis has been by my side.. i appreciate her more now.. I LOVE U, KAKDA!! u dun noe how much i love u!! thks fer ur encouragement, ya.. im listening to meraung by newboyz n i broke down.. im crazy!! insane!! argh!! damn shit!! y must u guys kill me straight lyke tis?? wat have i done?? i've been really thinking n in deep confusion..
lina, winda, iskhandar, hasan n my sis has been the one who helped me alot.. they r my only one true frenz!! is it?? is this what u guys wanna hear?? den?? tell me wad u wan so i can grant dem just fer u guys....