play my favourite song.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

!!!...pRobLeMs.. PrObLeMs.. mOrE pRobLeMs...!!!

!!!...pRobLeMs.. PrObLeMs.. mOrE pRobLeMs...!!!

dearest,

i hate life!!

well, i really do!!

ppl saes tht during school daes is fun n try to enjoy to e fullest n while u cn but it doesnt turn lyke wat it shld be to me!!

it is soooo unfair!!!!

yes!!

UNFAIR!!!

awww..i miss my fwens sooo much!!!

LINA!!

ANISA!!!

when is our silence gonna end??!!

WHEN!!!

i hate tis fighting!!

yes, i really hate it!!

i miss u guys..no matter hw much i tries to hide it..

am i suppose to be e first person again?

awwww... plz give me a break la..

lots of things hav happened to me..

n i swear upon god tht im nt gonna trust ani boys animore!!!

azmi broke my trust..same goes to taufiq..

it breaks my heart!!

plz understand me!!

am i an animal tht u guys did this kind of thing to me??

den y??

y??

hw cum??

wells, hav been going out w pelaj's lately..

e rest n make me peace my mind, at least..

i lurve dem..

dey r ma world fer nw!!

i lurve u, *sAn!aH, *hUdA, *mALaH, & *sAm!rAh

goes e same to *L!nA n *aN!sA too!!!

Sunday, June 19, 2005

=wAtErFaLLs=

= wAtErFaLLs =

dearest,

wats wrong w me?

i hv no idea.

i just kept thinkin of dem.

wat hv i done?

i hv no idea.

y is dis situation is getting worst?

i hate dis shit!!

our friendship has gone & has been washed awsay just lyke tht.

neither do we all lyke it.

but y we dun talk things out & prevent dis fight?

am i to blame?

den dun do these to me.

it hurts & it alwaes be.

deeep inside my heart, theres dis deeep wound & cn nvr be heal till one dae comes.

& i am waiting here, under e sky, fer tht beautiful dae arrives.

i cried.

heavily in bus 30 yest heading to werk w joe.

i kept thinking of unwanted beauiful memories of mine.

dey r my darrlings & will alwaes be.

i hate dis year!

yes.i really do.

probably, i wish i wldnt hv been born.

im an unwanted pest in dis world.

i cnt take it animore.

reaally.

i feel lyke ending my life soon.

in e rite tyme.

but...i cnt.

joe lend me his shoulder to cry on.

coz i really need one.

im yke soooo sad n depressed.

e feeling in me is lyke shit!!

aRgH!!

i hate dis life!!

i miss dearest.

i misss fadzlin.

i miss azlan.

i miss joe.

i misss syairul.

i miss huda, samirah, saniah & nurmalah.

i miss u guys esp. *liSa, *fAr, *sAk,*sAr, *liNa & *an!Sa.

i will alwaes do miss u guys.

yes.i do.

Friday, June 17, 2005

___sPa___

___sPa___

dearest,

joe teach me spa on tht dae..

ahahx..

its kinda fun..

me sooo super kuku.

dunno hw to spa lyke a real person..

ahahx..

kuku me..

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

...hApP!e bUrFdAe, dAdDy!!!...

...hApP!e bUrFdAe, dAdDy!!!...

dearest,

hApP!e bUrFdAe tO u...

HaPp!e BuRfDaE tO u...

hApP!e bUrFdAe tO dAdDy!!

HaPp!e BurFdAe tO u!!!

todae is my daddy's burfdae..

we now r going to han's river n celebrating daddy's burfdae!!

i bought him a cK perfume n dunno wen is e rite time to give it to him..

Monday, June 13, 2005

*..L!fE tHt w!LL aLwAeS bE rEmEmBeReD..*

*.. L!fE tHt w!LL aLwAeS bE rEmEmBeRed ..*

dearest,

0830 hrs: woke up

0920 hrs: bat

0945 hrs: pack up & getting ready to go gym

0955 hrs: left hse & daddy sent me,kakya & kakda to kallang gym

1005 hrs: reached @ kallang gym

pR!cE rAnGe: $2.50 fer adult

$1.50 fer student

1010 hrs: changed & getting ready fer e workout

1015 hrs: we tried cycling since e treadmill is full w ppl

1035 hrs: we finished w cycling

1045 hrs: carry weights

1100 hrs: we do some cardios

i tried e rock climbing & it was damn fun!!

wooohooo!!

we hv lots of fun & kakya met her brd long-lost fren,jonathan, dere..

1230 hrs: damn freaking tired & had enuff of exercising. went to bathrm & take turns to bath.

azmi called & asked me to go library & study.

1300 hrs: finished bathing. headed to e bus stop.

1330 hrs: reached Mc Cafe @ ecp

we ordered lots of stuffs! ahahx..really.we r lyked hungry ghosts festival,man!!

1400 hrs: we finished eating & went to makca hse.

kakya kept teasing mi tht library is nt @ e direction tht dey r goin..

ahahx..sat @ makca hse & played w firdaus fer a while.

1445 hrs: reached starbucks.

joe,azmi & farhan was dere. left soooo bad tht i came dere late.

sorry, guys.

we stayed dere den went to library to find place 2 study.

but too bad! dun hv..e place was packed, man!!

dunno wher to go n decided to go foodcourt since dey r hungry.

joe & azmi bought nasi padang.

farhan bought lontong.

i bought ice longan. =)

1630 hrs: we walked & walked till i get real sick n tired of walking.

went to my hse multi-storey carpk n lepak dere.

lepak & lepak & lepak until 2130 hrs.

ps: dun be sad & be hapi alwaes.hv a busy schedule & u will ferget those unwanted memories of urs.i hv had it b4.nw, its urs. take it easy & pray tht u guys will get thru of it. INSYA ALLAH!!

Sunday, June 12, 2005

..tEaRs rOlL!nG dOwN mY cHeEkS..

..tEaRs rOlL!nG dOwN mY cHeEkS..

im sad.

dissapointed.

heartbroken.

tears rolling down my cheeks wheneva i think of u guys.

y do tis hv to happen to me?

make a mistake?

n everyting goes wrong.

i dun lyke tis n dun wish to happen.

but neither did three of us prevent it.

all i do was wrong.

everyhing.

so,wad am i suppose to do nw?

tell me!!

tell me nw!!

i hated u guys sooo much!

i hate u!!

but...aft all,u r my fwens.

i wish all tis nvr ever start.

but...too late!

i do still lurve u guys no matter wad happens to e world.

i lurve u, *lina n *anisa.

yep.i do.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

xXxWhat's Lurve??

xXx?What's Lurve?xXx

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short.
If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Friday, June 10, 2005

..DrAgOn_BoAt..

dearest,

i simply luurrvvee dragon boat n e boaters as weel.haiz~ i just dunno y but yep.i do.n i really lurve dem soooooo much!! fer e last 3 trainings, we hv lotsa fun n damn freaking tired as e training is tough but it was paid off.as fer nw,im afraid fer tmr's competition!!i hoped tht we gonna win a medal tis round even though we hv nt enough manpower..kinda sad abt e attendence tht we produce but ppl just kept giving us excuses aft excuses.aRgH!!anws, fahimah n deborah came to help.deborah as e coaxman n fahimah??ahahx..she is soooo damn talkative!!i seriously gave up at her in e boat but weels, tht is her n i respect tht!!fahimah, i misses u n lurved u soooo much,yea?dun eva tink of me forgetting u or hating u..i hv nvr done tht before!!NVR!!nisa babe,i miss u too man..wher on earth r u,ah??nvr cared abt us,izzit??eh,come around n see us la.we need ur support too, okay??

i luurrvvee u all,darrlings!!

jelisa & samirah
pei shan & lynette
yan ling & cara
tonia & winda

n to my darrling partner, e one n onli u,

shaza!!

n fer e rest too, i lurve u also,yea!! :

mei wen,ellaine,esther,shakila,sally,pei xuan,bee hoon,jing hua,ying ying & especially to fahimah n deborah!!thankieus fer coming n helping us in db,yea.ur help is kindly appreciated by us.dun feel sad or heartbroken if we say harsh werds to u guys,huh?? sorry,darrlings!!!

boys!! we lurve u guys too!! u guys rawks, man!!

joe & roy
azmi & yong meng
don & slyvester
janson & yu bi
jia rong & jia hong
haadi & andrea
ker yih

we wish u guys all e best n try to pull as ur hearts out n may u guys won a medal!! ciayoh!! =)

to chief n mr fong,

without ur guys help, we wont be here n experience tis feeling..thks alot fer believing in us n make trainings fer us to try n won a medal in every challenge..there is no us if there is no u..thks!!

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

...*fRenZ- i hAd eNuFf Of u gUyS!!!*...

...*fRenZ- i hAd eNuFf Of u gUyS!!!*...

...*i'M sOoO sOrR!*...

dearest,

i'm seriously had enuff of ma frens..i mean my 'used'-to-be closest frens eva..i dunno wad r dey up to sumtymes.serious.i got soooo freakin confused!! y r ma frens kept treating me lyke a piece of sh!t!! damn it, man!!i think i'm a real bad fren!! serious. if not, y my life frens r alwaes betraying me n stuffs?? if u guys dun lyke db(dragon boat) soooo much, den speak up!! u noe y i change?? its bcoz of u guys!! i got soooo stressed up w ur behaviour!! freaking bi*ches!! aarrgghh!! thks to e pelajs fer saving me..i was really hoping tht dey wunt bastard me frm e back too..i really gt no more strengh to carry on if tis continues.. im already living lyke hell @ hm n dun wish to live on again outside hm.. my mom smtymes get on ma nerves,really. but i soon grew up n understands y. i dun mind but plz dun get me in pressure again, guys.. i really am counting on u, *sam,*malah,*niah n *huda, we misses u soooo much, okay!! spent time w us also..ahahx..kak linda!! i miss hanging out w u, darrls!! kakda, stop fighting w each other coz we r sistaz n i really hate it wheneva we r fighting, okay!! nvr once liked it.. wish to be more closer to u coz u r my sis..my onli one sis.. n winda!! stop being soooo perasan n terasa okay!! cn we b lyke last time in physics class?? puh-lease!!! im begging u on ma knees..kakya, im sorry fer bastaring u tht day.i noe u hv to send makca to sgh by 2pm since she got appointment. i really hv no intenstion or heart to bastard u n leave u alone..im sorry. i'll promise u i'll change n be punctual nx tyme. im real sorri..wells ppl out dere..i noe sm of u read my blog sumtymes to knoe my probs or wad-so-eva & i hv to say sorri if i eva broke ur hearts which i noe i do alot of tymes, okie?? im sorri..i noe i hv a veri bad mouth n attitude but i realli nvr eva once planned to break ur hearts..serious.im sorry, ppl!!

Monday, June 06, 2005

____*bAd gUrL*____

____*bAd gUrL*____

dearest,

its been a realli long time we've talk n shared things 2gether n im here once again to tell u abt ma life.azlan has left to ns. im sad. there's no more fun w/o him at werk. thank god still have nazrin, assri, fadzlin n blah blah.. i miss him. anws, i've turned to a bad gurl. a real one. dunno wads up w me. im crazy. depressed?? yep. toooo much pressure n over-stressed. nw, i've sprained my right ankle at special olympics meet. damn it!! tis is e end of me. i hv done too much sins tht god will nvr cn forgive me. i still miss ex dearies n u. i really do. i just realise tht we fight coz of one buto, just coz of one guy..im sorry but i really hv to say ur name, azmi.. i dun wish to call u pembastard or wat-so-eva but u hv to accept e fact tht bcoz of u, we all fight.just bcoz of u. n hw i wish i dun repeat tis yr. bcoz of me too, we all fight. its my fault n im speechless. i cld onli afford to sae sorry.. so, bcoz of tis, i've realli turned into a bad gurl. i wunt write it here but i hv written it at a new post n save as draft onli. it shall b my secret n i dun wish to unleash it. im sorry. wells, i miss u sooooo muchie tooo!! wish we cld go out somedae soon, huh?? c ya soon!!