Saturday, August 13, 2005
t!s !s fEr u tOo..
t!s !s fEr u tOo..Heys.. tis is fer u too, sarah.
Lyked I said, I dun give a damn abt it anymore. I knew myself veri well as e same as u knew urself better.
So, I knew wat I’ve said to ppl ard mi. I believed in myself same as u belived in urself.
I dun fucking care abt it anymore, sarah esp wen u said u dun believe me anymore.
I also dun expect u to believe me coz yes. I did talk abt u guys.
But wat did I said?? U wnt know coz u choose to believe others thn me. Den, go ahead.
I dun care. Coz im nt an angelic nor devil.
I’m a human. Same as u. same as others.
No matter hw bad I am or wateva shit I am, I still wants u guys back but ferget it.
U guys had enuff of ma shit n crap as e same as me hating to continue writing on ma blog abt u guys.
Wats wrong wif me?? Den wats wrong wif u to??
Look who alwaes twist n turn e story, k??!! argh.. wateva it is la k..
I wanna make things clear but instead u called me names?? Hypocrite..back-stabber..two-faced.
Den, its fine w me. I reallie dun wish to carry on w this kind of lyfe.
I had enuff n enuff is enuff.
In fact, I hav alwaes been taking out ma mask.
Since tis blow of urs hit me, I hav realized n ‘sedar’ dlm kehidupan aku, sarah..
E others knew huda’s attitude. I haven’t even say anything but dey came to me n said tht huda has gone to my sisterz??
Huh?? I was lyke wth?? Oh okie.. den I understand. She has gone to ma ex-dearies group.
Ppl n even myself knew tht she was trying to fit in to ur group coz she left us.
Sarah, hav u feel hw bad it is n hw awful it is wen ur cloze fren claims tht she chose her bf thn us?? I dun mind coz I hv been in her situation b4 but after tht, she went w e person tht she hated soooo much.
Isn’t tht wat we call ‘bitchy’ attitude??
I dun make her hate u guys coz she’s e one who hated u guys so much.
She even hated me at first. But I dun give a damn abt it n continue w my lyfe.
Tht point of tyme. She hasn’t came into my lyfe so wat fer I care abt ppl saying behind my backs. Look, I really miss those tymes but if u tynk im trying to be an angelic, den fuck off!! I dun care if im showing ppl hw bad I am coz I had enuff of tis shit!!
Yes I am bad. Im sick. Im crazy freaking whore!! Slut!! Fat bastard big mama or wateva shit la k.. but its e truth.
Before I even tell ppl abt her, ppl already hate her. Den, wat do u expect mi to do??
Sarah, no matter hw much I hate u, I still appreciates n treasure ur friendship.
Ppl talks abt u but I prove dem worng. I remember those tymes at ecp. Tht was 2yrs ago. We were roller-blading n u’re e onli one who helped mi. u think I hate u sooo much??
Cmon la.. im a human too. Im nt a beast or sumone who needed ur sympathy.
I’ve decided nt to talk or sae anithink tht gt to do w u guys anymore. Coz ppl will just add salt to e wound. If ppl dun care abt mi, dun bad-mouth mi, I’ll dun care abt dem.
Nth matters to me esp nw..
I am sutting up abt u guys. U tynk I gt nth else better to do?? I still hav to concentrate on my n esp wen im a repeat student. I really regretted nt studying well last yr . so, I dun wan my mistakes to repeat agin. I had enuff of mani frens. If u wan ppl to hate mi, go ahead. Be my guest. N im repeating tis agn, IM NOT TRYING TO B AN ANGEL!!
Im a normal human being. But fat n ugly. K??
Setiap fitnah adelah dolatnye. I guess some ppl has alredy gt their dolat. Siape mkn cili, dierr rase pedas. Sorry to copy smth frm ur blog, lisa.
N abt tht torn song. Thnks fer telling mi. but I wunt remove it coz if ppl think I’ve lost ma virginity just becoz I post tht up, den think tht wae. Its up to u guys.
Coz, in my life, aku kenal diri aku lebih drpd org lain yg mengenali diri aku.
To e ppl who tynks im nt bad after all, thnks but know myself first thn jus seeing mi coz some ppl tynks I need sympathy n an angel.
So srah, thnks fer everything. I wil remember abt u guys. I’ll wait fer e special dae to arrives even though u guys dun wish to be w mi anymore. I understand. Harap halalkan makan minum selama ini.
Thks. Takecare~