Monday, August 15, 2005
...wEeEe...
...wEeEe...
dearest,
finally..finally..finally..
i've spent tyme w my couzins...
weeeeee..
i felt pity fer kakya's nasib.
we ( kakya,kakno,kamuni,abg matz & mohd n fir) went to tprs
(tanjong pagar railway station) on sat.
we went out ard midnite to 3.30am.
its been a long tyme since we laugh n had fun.
abg matz n i laugh lyke fuck!!
perut sampai nak pecah.
we r making fun of each other..
ahahx.. i still cn remember every bit abt it.
unfortunately, kakmuni stopped e fun n laughter.
yep. we r thankful of tht coz if nt,
confirm2 sumone wil throw smth back at us.
hehs~ sori ppl.. we didnt mean it.
ermmm.. had fun to werking w niah.
its her first dae n she is lyke soooo kan-chiong.
funni..hillarious..
we r reallie making fool of urselves but no one is dere..
so, who cares??!! we dun give a damn abt it aniwaes..
kakya, im sooo sori abt wateva happens to u..
even though kakno treats u lyke tht, well, she's ur sister aft all..
dun sae anitink stupid, yea.
be strong.
as fer nazrin, kak linda dun deserve ur lots of lurve fer her..
we hav been taking fer nites..
n i hope u understand wat i mean..
there r mani fishes in e sea..
kumbang bkn seekor..
e decision is all up to u aniwaes.
takecare~
take lots of care..
plz eat, sleep n bath everdae..
god, plz do it fer mi or fer her??
at least??
Look.. im making things real clear..
Plz understand even if u doesn’t..
I did smoke but wat I mean in a blog is tht I dun smoke anymore.
Liked I said, u guys hav died in my lyfe fer e past 6 mths.
I dun care but cn u plz wat I mean wen I really am sincerely missing u guys~
Do u get it?? I dun noe hw to explain to u further.
U r even nt interested abt it anymore.. so, y do I hav to care??
E more I tried to explain, e more misunderstandings we had..
So, ferget it..
I really had enuff.. I noe u gonna sae lots n other more things lyke im trying to prove tht im inoocent or im angel or trying to twist n turn..
So, thts y I said ferget it..
Wateva it is, u guys hv been taking ma heart along wif u guys.
No matter hw much u guys hate me or waateva..
Sae wateva u wanna sae or wateva shit it is..
Do u sae everytink out wen u’re angry??
Wells, im sure u did..same lyke me..
U tink I dun feel guilty or shity wen u scold u best frens??
I do n I really do. I wish to sae this nt coz im nt sincere abt it but u guys will just add salt to e wound.
Meaning?? Each tyme I said smth, u guys will say smth too.
So, I rather shut e hell up before things get more worst.
Wat I mean wen I hate sarah is tht she tinks I hate her by saying wateva shit u guys hears.
But u tynk im lyke tht??
Well, I noe u gonna say yes..but, dun u guys realize hw much I lurved u guys??
Each dae I’ve been trying waes to smile at u guys or even talk to u guys but…. I noe u guys hears abt all those shit n thinks tht I needed sympathy??
Ohgod!! Y dun u ask sumone who is veri cloze to mi n ask dem wat I told dem everidae..
Im nt trying to be an angel or trying to show u guys hw sweet I am or wateva, k??
But each tyme I read urs n sarah’s blog, I cried. N I AM!!
I dun noe hw to explain more n much things to u guys anymore.
I went w lina n anisa last yr becoz I had some trouble to go w u guys during recess n aft skewl.. we r nt in e same class, remember??
N wen I saw e bdae present dey bought fer u, I feel such a shit n pathetic fren fer u guys..
My face r nt in e album n I dun blame anione fer tht coz sarah told mi tht she tried calling mi n asking fer pics of mi but no reply.
I get it. I dun blame ppl. I dun blame anione.
Yes. Yes. I did talked abt u guys..but wad is it??
U guys dun noe n dun seem wan to noe coz dere’s no reason fer it..
I wanted to mit u gys n talked thinks out but I cn feel e hatred fer mi,
I really really cant seem to remember tht I said to faridah abt im gonna make her lyfe lyke a living hell?? Sori but I really didn’t mean it..
Its up to u guys to believe it or nt coz I noe u wont.
Aniwaes, plz dun judge a book by its cover.
I may look lyke I dun wan to be frens wif u guys but in ma heart, yes I really wan some miracle to happen.
But wad fer?? U guys hav heard somethings tht r meant or nt meant to be heard.
N sarah, abt keegan thingy, im speechless.
I noe im in e wrong. Its to late to sae anything. Im was really in a pressure at tht point of tyme. Mr rahmat n mr lim kept asking abt e relationship u had w him.
I noe u gonna hate me foreva n plz do.
I deserve it but…I hv to stop here.
I cnt really hv privacy in here.. as fer u all.. sak, lis, far..
I do miss u guys till nw n foreva.
I will..i dunno wen we cn clear things out.
In my life, I hv nvr hated u guys.
I will never n has never.
Believe it or nt?? Up to u guys.
Making abt stories to ppl whom I hate??
Den wat am I?? An angel or a great n perfect fellow??
No..im nt,..
Liked I said too, I noe myself.
Wat I said to ppl n other things.
I hv other better things to said.
N studying?? Coz im aware n veri aware tht im a repeat student.
btw, i wunt take revenge on huda.
Plz understand even if u doesn’t..
I did smoke but wat I mean in a blog is tht I dun smoke anymore.
Liked I said, u guys hav died in my lyfe fer e past 6 mths.
I dun care but cn u plz wat I mean wen I really am sincerely missing u guys~
Do u get it?? I dun noe hw to explain to u further.
U r even nt interested abt it anymore.. so, y do I hav to care??
E more I tried to explain, e more misunderstandings we had..
So, ferget it..
I really had enuff.. I noe u gonna sae lots n other more things lyke im trying to prove tht im inoocent or im angel or trying to twist n turn..
So, thts y I said ferget it..
Wateva it is, u guys hv been taking ma heart along wif u guys.
No matter hw much u guys hate me or waateva..
Sae wateva u wanna sae or wateva shit it is..
Do u sae everytink out wen u’re angry??
Wells, im sure u did..same lyke me..
U tink I dun feel guilty or shity wen u scold u best frens??
I do n I really do. I wish to sae this nt coz im nt sincere abt it but u guys will just add salt to e wound.
Meaning?? Each tyme I said smth, u guys will say smth too.
So, I rather shut e hell up before things get more worst.
Wat I mean wen I hate sarah is tht she tinks I hate her by saying wateva shit u guys hears.
But u tynk im lyke tht??
Well, I noe u gonna say yes..but, dun u guys realize hw much I lurved u guys??
Each dae I’ve been trying waes to smile at u guys or even talk to u guys but…. I noe u guys hears abt all those shit n thinks tht I needed sympathy??
Ohgod!! Y dun u ask sumone who is veri cloze to mi n ask dem wat I told dem everidae..
Im nt trying to be an angel or trying to show u guys hw sweet I am or wateva, k??
But each tyme I read urs n sarah’s blog, I cried. N I AM!!
I dun noe hw to explain more n much things to u guys anymore.
I went w lina n anisa last yr becoz I had some trouble to go w u guys during recess n aft skewl.. we r nt in e same class, remember??
N wen I saw e bdae present dey bought fer u, I feel such a shit n pathetic fren fer u guys..
My face r nt in e album n I dun blame anione fer tht coz sarah told mi tht she tried calling mi n asking fer pics of mi but no reply.
I get it. I dun blame ppl. I dun blame anione.
Yes. Yes. I did talked abt u guys..but wad is it??
U guys dun noe n dun seem wan to noe coz dere’s no reason fer it..
I wanted to mit u gys n talked thinks out but I cn feel e hatred fer mi,
I really really cant seem to remember tht I said to faridah abt im gonna make her lyfe lyke a living hell?? Sori but I really didn’t mean it..
Its up to u guys to believe it or nt coz I noe u wont.
Aniwaes, plz dun judge a book by its cover.
I may look lyke I dun wan to be frens wif u guys but in ma heart, yes I really wan some miracle to happen.
But wad fer?? U guys hav heard somethings tht r meant or nt meant to be heard.
N sarah, abt keegan thingy, im speechless.
I noe im in e wrong. Its to late to sae anything. Im was really in a pressure at tht point of tyme. Mr rahmat n mr lim kept asking abt e relationship u had w him.
I noe u gonna hate me foreva n plz do.
I deserve it but…I hv to stop here.
I cnt really hv privacy in here.. as fer u all.. sak, lis, far..
I do miss u guys till nw n foreva.
I will..i dunno wen we cn clear things out.
In my life, I hv nvr hated u guys.
I will never n has never.
Believe it or nt?? Up to u guys.
Making abt stories to ppl whom I hate??
Den wat am I?? An angel or a great n perfect fellow??
No..im nt,..
Liked I said too, I noe myself.
Wat I said to ppl n other things.
I hv other better things to said.
N studying?? Coz im aware n veri aware tht im a repeat student.
btw, i wunt take revenge on huda.
she is my fren aft all.
i noe tht. i've told myself tht.
dun wori..im washing my hands off tis.
Takecarez~ good luck fer ur prelims n o’s.
As fer others, best wishes~