Thursday, December 08, 2005
cRy!nG~
cRy!nG~
todae is a crying dae fer me.
sumtymes i wonder y those happie moments hav to end sooo fast.
GOD is reallie testing me.
i hate it!!
in fact, i hate him!!
but, i'm here, writing tis entry all becoz of him.
he's one-in-a-zillion.
i'm thankful to him to let me live n have lots n different kinds of opportunity.
thank you, ALLAH.
i miss my old self.
i miss e kraziee, bubbly, happy-go-lucky me.
y does tht great attitude of mine is gone??
coz frens plays a part in our secondary lives.
liked i said, dey r wonderful living thing on earth!!
but at e same tyme, dey kills.
dey hurt ur feelings deeply.
dey slash ur heart lyke a piece of meat.
dey cn create unwanted things to u in just 1sec.
but, u wnt notice coz to u, dey r e light of ur life.
y am i being so sentimental n emotional??
coz of my frens.
family.
cuzzins.
teachers.
everyone ard mi.
i used to hate myself.
my life.
but, no more.
no longer!!!
coz nth is gonna upset me animore!
yes, i will cry if anithink bad happens to mi.
coz tht makees me feel betta.
n dun u tell me nt to cry.
fu*k off n mind ur own business.
i have my own lifestyle.
so do u.
respect it.
n it shall rspect u.
frens: u may tynk i'm happie but if ur reallie a true fren, look into me, see e real me n understand me. if u tynk u cnt do tht, den...stay away frm me. i dun need frens lyke u who backstabbed e person who trust u n stand by u~ b.i.t.c.h