Thursday, December 01, 2005
pRoM??
pRoM?!!
everyones talking abt it.
dey cnt wait.
but me??
i hate tht word.
i reallie do.
we hav to go n do all kinds of trouble n spend loads of cash fer just one nite.
i hate prom.
i hate dinner n dance.
i hate it very much.
havnt make e decision yet.
whether to go or nt to go??
LINA!!!!
i need u!!
ohgod.
tis is my worst nitemare!!
hw??
ermmm...
on e first thought, i seriously aint goin.
but on e second thought, its my last prom nite i'll b going in my teens lyfe.
but, tynk abt it??
last yr, i spent bloody $600 on prom's thingy.
excluding 6 tickets, madam.
yes!!!
see y i gt so fu*cked up w prom??
i'll b broke if i'll go prom tis yr.
unless, i met some loaded bfs.
haha.
thts just nt me.
ermm.. want shall i do nw??
shld i or shldnt i go??
spoke to zee todae abt prom.
told him i'll be broke to hell if i'll go prom.
wen looked into his eyes, i saw smth which made me dun wanna tok abt it.
he was thinking hard.
y?? to get $$ fer me, dumb ass!!
he felt so guilty fer nt having e $$.
but hey!!
its isnt his fault.
i felt worst!!
i hate myself fer telling him.
ohgod!!
y cnt i lurve him back n cherish him lyke wad i used to??
y do my feelings hav to change fer him??
lina told me he is a nice guy.
anisa told me he is a good guy.
fahms told me he is a great guy.
chief told me he is one-in-a-million guy.
everyone dotes him!!
y cldnt i??
i cnt bear seeing him suffer while im enjoying.
does anyone noes hws e feeling??
it sux!!
it reaaliie does.
watever it is, i dun tynk i wanna go.
its nt abt e money.
its abt e heart.
whether it is willing to go or to let go.
we shall see.